mazz (winebabe) wrote,

Let's Get Personal!

 A lot of stuff has been going on in my life, and I haven't really been active anywhere.

So, first and foremost, Camp NaNoWriMo has started. Therefore, I've been trying to actually write that novel. It's slow going, for another multitude of reasons. I lost steam pretty quickly, even though I love the idea, just because my brain has been in one hundred different places as far as stuff to write. I care less about this idea than, say, some of the less taxing AUs and such I've thought up for TGO in the meantime. I'm trying to stick with it, though, because I'm a chronic idea-dropper, and I think that's due in part to the fact that I allow myself to drop ideas. It isn't that they won't work, it's just that something newer and shinier comes along, and I'm starstruck by the new idea.

I also joined another writing group, but unlike RaTs, this is more word wars and chit chat than actually sharing our writing. So I've been hanging out on discord for the majority of the week, talking to these new people, hoping to transfer some of that enthusiasm into my novel. Again, it's slow going.

My parents are agreeable to letting me get a chinchilla (or two) and SO, I've been hastily trying to clean out my room as per one of their demands. Again, slow going. Working 42.5+ hours a week, and coming home to 88 degree days, does not really make me want to suffer through the arduous process of attempting to clean and organize what is probably better titled the "pit of discard hell" instead of a closet. But I desperately want another chinchilla, so I'll make it work. I have to make it work.

And, on top of all those normal and acceptable reasons for me to have fallen off the face of the Earth, I am also pretty depressed. Still not completely over the guy that bruised my heart last month, and then I had another guy friend disrespect my boundaries and, full-well knowing how terrible I was feeling, asked if I wanted to be in a relationship with him while he's in an open relationship with a girl he met online. I was disgusted and offended, because clearly he didn't care about my feelings at all; if he had, he would have known I wasn't ready for a relationship period.

Anyway, that's where I'm at. I'm hoping to continue working on my Camp novel, maybe put some work in on my zombie AU for RaTs, and then I've been daydream up some more ideas for my detective group, since I could use a fun break to focus on some different characters.
Tags: camp nanowrimo, mazz chats
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